You Love Me Anyway

Wow so it's been a while since I did a blogpost...so I figured I would do one and catch it up :)

So in December, I went to my moms for Christmas and it was hard to hug her and then walk away to get on the shuttle to head to slc to stay the night at Crissy's house and then I flew out for Faithwalkers which was amazing. It was seriously like open heart surgery...I learned how to have a better servant's heart and just to seek God even more for that heart. And also how to have a heart like God's for the lost. I learned so much at that conference...On a side note it was hard for me to leave some very dear people who have impacted my life...

On January 3rd, 2011, Stephy and Nick got married. It was such a joy to watch and partake in. It was cool for me to see how a marriage centered around Christ comes together. The wedding was so much fun and i danced and giggled. a lot...

Since January, I've been living in Fort Collins, CO. I knew that life here was not going to be easy and it hasn't.....God has opened my eyes and my heart to a lot more things. It's been a struggle but I know in the end it will be worth it...I've been faithfully looking for a job since then and it's frustrating at times and I feel overwhelmed...but God has the perfect job for me. I've also had a lot of heart struggles.

So there's this guy that I like and I was putting my hope into the things that he was saying to me and not looking to my Sweet Jesus...so I made a really hard decision and deleted him off of my facebook. I want to grow more in my relationship with Jesus! Before I deleted him, I was talking to a friend and she gave me this advice: "Waiting is hard but so worth it!" It really hit me at that point and time and I hadn't even said anything to her about him. Since then, I have gotten that same advice from a few other women in my life.

One thing that has been hard for me to learn is how to trust Jesus more....That has been HUGE in my life and to be honest, it is soo hard. I took a huge leap of faith to move to CO but its where God wants me. For a little while after I moved here I wanted only to get others to like me. I don't need to do that because I have Jesus. I have spent many hours crying because my heart hurts soo much. Jesus is breaking me, and it hurts. badly. but it's making me grow more in Him.

I have started to feel things and have things come back that Jesus wanted me to give Him. Team has been so encouraging and so supportive of me and I love them all very dearly...I have a lot of things to still learn and grow from.. There have been a lot of things that make me stop and think and reevaluate the way I live. I love living with my roommates!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So this coming week is Spring Break and I have the opportunity to go on my first Spring Break short mission trip. I am incredibly excited but scared at the same time...I think that God is going to do big things on this trip and I'm excited to see what happens and I will update when I get home...

So here is a song that my sister sent me and that's why I titled it You Love Me Anyway
http://listen.grooveshark.com/s/You+Love+Me+Anyway/2keWX7?src=5