Ok God.. :)

So the other day I had a serious conversation with God after all the videos and music I was listening to made me bawl. Why did it make me bawl? Well I'll tell you, so lately, I have done nothing but run away from God and Jesus.. I was at a really broken point and God used those videos to remind me to come back to Him and Trust Him. That day I really felt God's love once more and i havent felt it in a while. That day also marked the day that I shed many tears for God and Jesus... i so want Jesus to be the love of my life right now and yes it is hard.

God also used that day to place a lot of things on my heart.. Im confused but im going to keep on praying because I know that God has the perfect plan for my life..it even says so in Jeremiah 29:11. :) Im bursting at the seams because I want to know what Gods plan is for my life..but i can wait patiently..i think..LOL! I know that God has huge plans for my life and I have been so broken and lonely without them..

As I was sitting here thinking last night when I couldnt sleep I started to think about how I can be an example for others, and how I can let people see my love for God and Jesus..man! so many ideas came to my mind... I know that I have the light of Christ in me and I'm a really loving person. I was asked a couple of weeks ago "What is the one thing that people really like about you?" I thought for a little bit then said I actually have two.. "My smile which always lights up the room and my ability to love others unconditionally no matter what they do to me." That person looked at me and said, "You are so right!"

So with my smile and the ability to love others, I think that I can share that with others. I'm a friend that people know that they can count on no matter what the situation is. I've also come to the conclusion that, I have some pretty amazing friends, sisters, and brothers in Christ :)

One thing that still makes me hurt inside and out is when my biggest fear is hurting someone that I love. I hope I don't intentionally hurt someone but it could happen.. I just have to remind myself that things happen for a reason..and that I might not like that reason...

Ok God, I just wanted to say thank you for your grace and for reminding me once again that: Your Love Is Strong and that it never fails :)
Please feel free to comment or ask questions, and if I cant help I will ask someone to help me help you

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randomness :)

Don't Waste your Life and run with those Beautiful Feet yo :) so even though i feel like crap i have decided that i want to be random. hey people get the hint ok its my life so i will do wit it wat i want 2 do wit it so dont tell me otherwise. i love Jesus..dont get me wrong. its just lately i have been running far away but he and God are right here beside me. i love mussssssssssssicccccccccccccc it makes me so happy...........i was listenin 2 the Wicked soundtrack agin earlier and it makes me smile and want 2 sing wit the music :D i love ice cream..it's the bombdiggity. i gots a sparkly blue sea turtle as a stuffed animal :) its freakin saweet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i loike tuttles!!!!!!!!! :D hehehehehe i gots soda :) :) dont judge me for wat i do or dont do. ok its my life and im goin 2 live it the way i want 2!! actually i should say the way that God wants me to live my life. yeah its hard to just let God b n control but he knows wats best 4 me n my life. :) hehehehehe bounce bounce *sigh ugh sigh* i hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!